Friday, May 29, 2009

Good Friday

Ok, this isn't really the public holiday good friday but this is MY good Friday. Why? Simply because today is the last day of the Semester, meaning the school holidays' here!!!
YIPPEEEEE!!!!

Not that I don't have to work during the school holidays, but at least the place is SOOOOO much quiet-er and the pace is soooo much calmer. Meaning, I have lotsa time to clean my workstation, and clear some backlogs! *yeah rite!*

I think I should really have a celebration since I have not celebrated end of exams! *not that I know i'll pass or anything* So, CUZZIES, CELEBRATION TIME, YES????? Aiyoh, last time we met was on that fateful Mon which is almost 2 weeks ago! Time flies that fast! Talking about time flying that fast, tmr is Pak Long's 40th. And Tok Ne just realised / remembered (i don't really know what happened) that she lost her first child. I think she cried for the first time in 38 days. Haiz.... how can anyone get over losing a child? I am not a mother but yet I can't even imagine losing a child! I mean, imagine losing someone as cute as Ryan?

Ok, not that I'm saying Ryan is cute - coz he's NOT! He is this super naughty kid who refuses to listen to instructions and grumble / scream / whine his way out of his "misery". And he has this superbly irritating habit of waking me up at 6am, just because he can't sleep anymore. And how does he do that? Depends on his mood I guess. Sometimes it was climbing on me, sometimes its slapping my face, sometimes force my mouth open and gag me, sometimes its pulling my hair, bt the latest is pulling my toes one by one! How did he find out that I ultimately hate that?! Point is I DON'T LIKE YOU RYAN! *and then he flashes his most charming smile, showing his small teeth* Such a heart-breaker that boy!

Anywho, tmr the CV (or what's left of CV) is supposedly gonna be having some sleepover at Nad's place coz Nad's parents aint around. But this also means that she wanna take this opportunity to go clubbing. And D-uh, Rah is excited about this. But 'Asy and myself do not wanna go clubbing. So we still don't know what's gonna happen. At worst, Nad and Rah can go haf fun while 'Asy and myself do our own activities.

Tuition is cancelled tmr (YAHOO!) and of coz I'm not really complaining. I am just however sad that I won't receive the fees, again. Its like 3 weeks overdue and I am like superbly broke in so many ways. *which reminds me that I hafta claim the amount spent for the meeting*

Now that Kambing is no longer with us *no, she did not die, she went home*, and the next maid will be arriving God-knows-when, we have hired 2 temporary maids - Eni Gonzales and Mimi Marpoeah. I don't know how they will be but hopefully the house won't be a wreck. Hmmm... maybe I'll cook something on Sat!

Ok, gtg, got lots to finish up!

Take care Gentle Readers!

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 11:08 AM

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Morning Rage!

I have to blog about this because this is making me so pissed off!
Pagi-pagi buat aku naik darah! Soyal betul!!!

There I was walking to work, as usual, listening to the songs from my mp3, as usual, and had to cross this entrance of a carpark, as usual. And as usual I always turn to look if there is any vehicle that is turning into the carpark. I saw a car, but it did not signal, AT ALL. So I crossed over. Will take at most 3 seconds to reach the other side. To my amazement, this car turned in. But what's new about IRRESPONSIBLE DRIVERS WHO DO NOT FOLLOW BASIC RULES anyway right? Bt the driver HONKED at me! Fine. I turned around, still not pissed, as things like this do happen kan.

BUT the IDIOTIC DRIVER had the nerve to stop HER car (YES IT'S A BLOODY SHE!) and said to me, R U BLIND? CAN'T U SEE? SO...

I SCREAMED AT HER "YOU! DIDN'T SIGNAL!!!" And how dare she gave me the shocked look of me answering back?! WTF! BITCH!

Dah tak signal ,ada hati nak marah orang! Padan muka kena tengking! Pagi2 buat aku marah. Swine Flu betul! As I walked away, she looked like she was ready to chase me with her ugly car. And in my heart I was like, go do it bitch, coz I am soooooooooooooo gonna box your face!

So what's the moral of this entry?

Apart from letting me let off some steam, this is a reminder to all DRIVERS!
PLEASE EH, DUN PUSH THE BLAME TO PEDESTRIANS WHEN YOU DID NOT FOLLOW A SIMPLE RULE!

Ok, now I feel slighttttyyyyyy better. Got to go back to work now, busy, busy day.

And I am in a FOUL mood!

Who wants a piece of me today? Bring it on!

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 8:45 AM

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Empty

I have officially screwed up myself this time. Why must I get sick during exams????
I had my third paper today and was very happy when I saw the risk and return topic as I studied that one like mad. Halfway through writing down one of the definition, my mind sudeenly wen blank. TOTAL BLANK. I suddenly can't remember anything, even the formula! I told myself to calm down but nothing came back. NOTHING. Like my whole brain is empty! I can't even force it out! Never been in this state but I think the meds have something to do with it. It's like I'm zonked out. And I didn't even take fedac or the cough mixture!

Haiz... looks like I'm going to see a BIG FAT ZERO for this paper.

I can say gdbye to finally graduating and say hello to repeating third year........

Gtg flex my brain muscle for the next paper. This one will be another killer - more theory to memorise.

SHIT!

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 9:46 PM

Thursday, May 14, 2009

WORLD'S BEST PROCRASTINATOR

INTRODUCING THE WORLD'S BEST PROCRASTINATOR
*DRUM ROLLS*

ME!!!

Ok, if anyone wanna challenge this fact, obviously, u dunno me. AT ALL.
I have always known that I procrastinate. A LOT.
Bt i think this time, its gonna cost me. A LOT.

I mean, what the hell am I doing online, blogging, when I should be preparing for my next paper? Simply becos i wanna put off the preparation. I can really plan around the preparation. For eg. i binge and force myself to be hungry and to eat and then sleepy just so that I dun haf to look at more notes. How is that possbile? VERY. Coz we r talking about me here.

It's only in this past couple of weeks do I realise I handle and manage things differently from others. (or maybe not coz others mite just be pretending). How i cope with stress, pain, hurt, anger, sadness or lost etc, is to keep my mouth shut abt it and avoid it all together. In another words, I am an escapee.

For years I have this stupid amount of angin in my badan that refuses to get out and coz me so much discomfort and pain and I just found out last Sun that Ayah can do wonders. I told Mum (whom I know will be reading this- HI MUM!!!! LEAVE ME A COMMENT IN MY TAG!) how come nobody tries to help me when I am in so much pain due to gas? She said - well, u nvr tell us. I MEAN MUST I SCREAM AND MAKE A SCENE????! Apparently, YES.

Well, for years, I just shut my crap up and now I'm told to tell people. How am I suppose to do that? I am not whiny Diyana (read - attention seeker. I noe u r reading this too!). I mean... its natural for me to shut up. Its like everytime I take a roller coaster ride (which is less den 10 rides) i actually prefer to look at whats coming up next n I dun scream. 'Asy always tells me, "Kin! Njoy the ride, scream, let it go!" Bt I just can't open up my mouth and scream!

WHAT THE F*** IS WRONG WITH ME???

Herni says "You HOLD BACK !" I think i was taught to hold back. or at least that was what I thought i was suppose to do. Hold back - dun let emotions show (n thus i dun understand y along has to cry and can cry all the time - i know u r reading this too!)

I've been doing everything wrong! I haf to start to let emotions show. Shit I wanna laugh just by the thought of it. HOW?????? I haf to stop HOLDING BACK and building this stupid wall.

Then maybe, things may come out right after all... hmmph... let's try that starting from....

NXT MTH! (I told u i m a procrastinator!)

now, i just hafta get back to my studies...

That is after my power nap...

and after i get ready to go visit Tok Ne...

and after playing with Ryan

and after Mimi's bdae celebration....

;p

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 1:25 PM

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

- Untitled -

There's just too many happenings in this year (mostly bad) and I do feel like blogging about it. But just the mere thought of going through the emotions of each happening is enough to make me so exhausted and down...

Where do I start anyway? I just really hate the past month and in fact I really hate 2009.

There is rainbow after the rain right? Or is that just a stupid saying? I want my rainbow, I need my rainbow and I deserve a rainbow!

Dear Rain, please please just go away...
for awhile at least.......

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:41 PM

Two Words

I QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boy, I can't wait for the day when I can finally scream out these words!